"I won't go nowhere without you in my heart."
I still wish everyday that I had been there in that last moment, for your last breath. Maybe it was better that I was across the world where I could drown my pain in new discoveries and places. You are constantly thought of and constantly loved.
I look for you in the sky and seek you in my dreams. I listen for your voices in times of needed guidance. I hope you two found each other in Heaven. I hope you know I try my hardest and you both are my inspiration for a better life and an admirable career. I love you both and see you in my mind as I write this. No need to close my eyes to imagine your images. No need to close my eyes to focus on your voice, I hear it, I often speak it.
Has it really been that long? 2004 and 2009, February 4th. What has happened? Where has the time gone? It's all been a constant quest. Searching, experiencing, discovering, growing and breathing. Have you been watching over us? Shaking your heads at bad choices and pushing us along when our hesitation seems to get in the way? Have you been laughing with us at family meals and gatherings? Where does your spirit reside?
I live in San Francisco now, but I feel like my spirit is sprinkled many places. The pixie dust of my soul is sprinkled throughout the world upon people that I have loved and love.
The day has come and gone and I continue to place my thoughts upon the memories we have together. You have taken a part of my soul to Heaven with you and it is a beautiful thing. I will continue to sprinkle it among the places I go and the people I meet. Keep it safe and hold it close, as I do to the moments of us that I truly and deeply cherish.
God Bless.
