Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Wow... it has been far too long since I've taken the time to sit down and write on this site. Journaling has occurred, but blogging has not. Too much has happened in the past year to go into a lot of detail, so here's the jist:

Left San Francisco January 12th 2012. Lived in Vermont until March 9th. Moved to Philly to live on my own and start nursing school. Nursing school started April 2nd. Half way through and rocking it. Currently training for the Philly marathon, officially signed up for the Boston Marathon (April 15th 2013) and SO excited for Fall. A lot has happened in the past 12 months... there have been MANY ups and downs... restless, sleepless nights, laughs, tears, frustrations, excitement etc but one thing that is SO evident... I am the happiest I have EVER been.

Continuing to silently root for myself and becoming stronger and more independent each day. Trying to figure out what I want and who I want... it's a challenge and can sometimes leave me in wonderment.. but I am happy and that's all that matters.


"I envisioned what it would be like and it looks beautiful to me. I envisioned what it would feel like and it feels warm to me. It's a peaceful feeling. I know it seems a bit ambiguous but that is just the way it is suppose to be."

I wrote this last year in a post as I envisioned what my life would be like 'alone.' Living alone, embarking on an adventure alone and finally taking each and every day, waking up and wondering what will this day hold for 'me.' No need to incorporate anyone else's plans into my day because there is no one to incorporate. It's all about me. As I laid on that couch envisioning the moments that I currently live, it looked beautiful and let me tell you it IS beautiful.

Yes, there are days and moments when loneliness is a prominent feeling, but it is fleeting and infrequent. When moments like that occur I put on some music, I slip into the tub or I call/text a friend that I know is out there rooting me on. 

I have been on the east coast, west coast and then back to the east coast.